13- an omen, a wake up call

They say that the number 13 is a number shrouded with mystery and is regarded as a harbinger of bad luck. I am a man of logic, therefore i do not believe in urban legends and lores. However the date 13 today, brings a new definition of bad luck to me.

All in all i have never fail anything in my life, failure is not an option in my dictionary. Sure, if we were to look at my track records from back when i was at junior high i always have a weakness on a certain subject (and the trend is mathematics from time to time). And that track record of mine shows the connection between me and mathematics is like superman to krypton. It was, is and will be my bane.

I got a slight breath of fresh air when i entered college, no more mathematics! Yay! my weakness for once and for all is eliminated. Oh but my cries of joy were about to be cut short, for mathematics has ways in which it embodies itself. In the form of accounting.

I'll admit it now, accounting is not as bad as mathematics. No abstract formulas, no complicated counting and such. However it demanded a great deal of focus and concentration as well as diligence and accuracy. Overall, it demanded a lot of logic power.

Doesn't seem to strike me as a krypton. But my brain has a funny way of reacting to stuffs, once exposed to something that it thinks it would not use in the next stage of my life, it will shut out immediately to that subject, shutting down all abilities to study. And for me accounting is something that i would not use.

What all this has got to do with the number 13? Well, today my accounting assignment and my practice exam's score has just been distributed. And guess what ladies and gentleman, i was this close to failing the assignment, because the oh-so-mighty accounting teacher has decided that every assignment must have a hurdle of 50, less than that and you will fail the assignment, thus failing the whole unit altogether.

What does this mean to me? now, i have another problem up my sleeve. Thank god i do not have any difficulties in the other subject, but my grades are not brilliant as well. My main target is passing this college with an average of 65, which enabled me to go to Caulfield, one of the more prestigious campus of Monash in Australia.

With a quick calculation, in order for me to not fail the subject AND get an average of at least 65 in the subject, my final examination mark should be 73, period.

As my oh-so-brilliant track record has proven, i always limped along the way, but in the end it is always a satisfying mark. Therefore, i hope my brain can lift away the stigma that it has and to study like a madman for the upcoming exam.

I will not fail, i have to much at stake if i fail.